The Intersection.

Assalamualaikum

Currently listen : Don’t Rush - Tegan and Sara

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Yes, i heart Tegan and Sara (: (new folder) Before this i always imagine that i might someday be just like them. You know, play all the instrument and make own songs but yea what did you expect, i imagined things too much :P I guess it gave me truly inspiration. I dunno how to explain in details, i just felt really blessed and its like the leaf finally has turned. 

i will do what i can do the best,

i must do what i can do the best,

i have to, to be the best..

Assalamualaikum.

Currently listen : Eenie Meenie - Sean Kingston feat Justin Bieber

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I guess this is it. Hard to accept this actually because the rejection wasn’t something that i had in mind, totally unexpected. Well i guess God knows that I am a bad decider.. heh But whatever it is, i guess this was pretty the best for me.. (: Alhamdulillah..

So, as a curious girl that always took something strongly by logic can’t sit still. I must came up with something to calm myself, search for the reason why i didn’t get into UPU (Malaysian sort of Education Formal Form) Well first i guess i was again OVER CONFIDENT while filled in the form (idk neither i was over confident with my only 7A’s or i strongly believe that God has make this up to me)

Yea i was heading for Architecture and Engineering. If you ask me why, i just dunno how to explain or maybe lazy for doing so. Only thing is, it looks secure and fit me. Its like a magnet, i was attracted and into it. So i filled up, all ASASI (Centre of Foundation Studies - recommended for Science Stream students) Now i know why i didn’t get a chance to go in, my result on science subjects..

I remember mostly came from my sister who is the Lecturer at Pulau Pinang Matriculation College and from my seniors (i’m not really that close to her and him) but they said if go Matrics you can make a better result, means on science subjects plus you’ll be heading for your degree straight after one year. Same as Asasi. That is why i didn’t filled up for Diploma in the form (the strategy) lol

Silap hari bulan aku kawin lari kat Golok dgn orang Siam then pregnant dpt anak nama Pattaya -_-” Thanks FER dan Akmal kerana mengatur jalan cerita aku. Pape pun congrats ye (: Asasi UIAM Seni Bina (kite sepatutnya bersama FER hehe) Asasi UM Sains Hayat (akmal 9a+1a sape tanak :p nanti aku bawak jalan2 gi Bangsar ye hehe)

And next you can go overseas using your matriculation result. (this one i know) But the thing is you must really struggle and you must fit mentally and physically. I’ve seen the schedule and a rough look at the concept of the result for some INFO  (:

Class morning-evening and at night no class - depends on teacher. No uniform la, just strictly for girls (baju kurung - malays and non) boys (shirt with tie and no jeans). Every end of the week must send Lab report which will be taken as your PB (Penilaian Berterusan). Quizzes, contribution and your involvement in disscussion will be taken by your lecturer as your PB too, easy to say like your tutorial and amali la.

Good thing now matrics student were given 3 modules to choose. 

1. Module 1 - Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Mathematics
2. Module 2 - Biology, Chemistry, Mathematics, Science Computer
3. Module 3 - Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Science Computer

One year means you have Two Semester. One semester you got two exam which is UPS (Ujian Pertengahan Semester) and PSPM (Peperiksaan Akhir Semester). Your PNGS (Purata Nilai Gred Semester) will be out by the end of the sem which based on the sum of your UPS, PSPM and PB result. Your PNGK (Purata Nilai Gred Keseluruhan) which is your Final Matriculation Result will be taken by adding your PNGS1, PNGS2 and PB.

i need a complete REHAB before going there..

you can’t make up your mind mind mind mind mind ~

please don’t waste my time time time time time ~

i’m not tryin’ to rewind wind wind wind wind wind ~

i wish our hearts could come together as one

Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova ! (infinity X)

till then :)

Assalamualaikum.

Currently listen : Wonderwall - Oasis

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Hi :) Okay, Alhamdulillah, 23rd of March already way behind. Aku sangat tergamam. How everyone is waiting for the date of the result just passed by in just a few seconds right after they signed the attendance and given an envelop. Trust me, these past 3 months, i never really think about how my result would be (i guess i’m lying) but all i can say what i had in mind quiet often is ;

what am i going to do? how am i going to react? how will i be the next day? what will i do after i received the result? how will 24th of March will be? what is it with me till the rest of the year?

And now i still wondering what actually HE had planned for me next? HE full with surprises. Aku cuma mampu untuk merancang dan berangan, but he make things happen. 

hanya aku yang berbicara, dan ya DIA mendengar.

Anyway, let not waste any more time ok. :)

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22nd March 2011.

yeah what can i say, i got my heart dropped out from its position..

I was never ever been a smart student. i just did what i can do best. and yes, i was never been a somebody that people will search for an answer in any particular test or exercises. i was the SECOND CLASS LOWER graduates, i was the girl with the guitar and a very friendly senior like they said. Well, aku suka melayan kerenah mereka kerana aku in any way, i will just smile and laugh with them. i just love the feeling and i know its not even a crime :)

HONEST : TRIAL RESULT.

Bahasa Malaysia : A (75)

Bahasa Inggeris : B+ (76)

Pendidikan Islam : B (71)

History : C+ (64)

Mathematics : B+ (74)

Additional Mathematics : B (50)

Physics : B (67)

Chemistry : D (40)

Biology : C+ (60)

Visual Arts : B (teacher never give exact marks)

overall : 1A 6B 2C 1D

yes people have to know so they didn’t put high expectation on me. that was very stressful compare the exam papers.

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i need some magic to overcome the forces of pressure that was pulling my heart apart from its position.

What am i trying to say? I just wanted you to feel me, be inside me and know how exactly the feeling i carry along the way as an MRSM student that put high expectation in me including family and friends. yes, family what else they better at besides giving you a false hope that look very convincing. but im not saying it was bad things, that is how the family bond gained more solid. no matter what, we know whom we want to look for pleasant words to hear and make us be the best of the creatures. well, i’ve been really messed when in hostel. it would be lying if i told you i never cried there. nothing else i can do but just tryy…

HONEST : ACTUAL RESULT.

Bahasa Malaysia : A+

Bahasa Inggeris : A+

Mathematics : A+

History : A-

Pendidikan Islam : A-

Visual Arts : A-

Additional Mathematics : A-

Chemistry : B

Physics : C+

Biology : C+

overall : 7A 1B 2C

Two things that i learned, we can’t expect anything from HIM. HE will surprised you in his own way. He is the most gracious and most merciful. But do not take advantage, because HE is well known with his intelligence and he got games. I was surprised. Totally surprised that i was jumping and hugging Umi with joy. Pity Umi, she thought i got straight As. I’m sorry Umi, it just way than i expected. Can you explained the result on Chemistry??

Next, never be too over confident with yourself. Believe that you can do it on your own without any helps. Although we’re the smartest student in the whole universe but we need HIS help. Maybe while answering my Physics paper, i never think about HIM. I just know i can do this. Yes, i accepted it as what has written though i was thinking of rechecking the Physics but i think that was enough. Alhamdulillah, hey like i said HE GOT GAMES.

the game that HE gave me to play isn’t something easy and it doesn’t have any cheat code that can be google in. it was me, i was the CHEAT CODE of the game.

till then :)

Alhamdulillah..

Yesterday : 3rd February 2011.

Currently listen : Senyum - Malique featuring Najwa

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I guess the first history in 2011 has be made. My sister finally engaged to her lover. O yesterday was a hectic, no i mean this whole week my family macam tak cukup tanah. Been busy witht the renovation and the house, decoration theHantaran (Malay’s tradition for engaging ceremony) and load more.. Well just in a few seconds, my sister already the fiancée for Rohaizad Narazi. And this is my first time experienced such event in my family i mean. Aku rasa macam tengah bermimpi sambil berjalan. Semua orang di sekeliling aku, macam sebuah halusinasi yang aku bayangkan. Kadang-kadang penglihatan terasa gelap dan kadang-kadang terasa tidak ingin bersuara. Sama macam mimpi di mana kadang-kadang tu, kita hanya mendengar dan memerhati.

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Well, most of them even ask me why am i so quiet. Lol let me be la.. heh so a little story here.. According to the tradition, after the GUY’s side giving away their Hantaran to the GIRL’s side, we were supposed to repay them again by giving our side’s Hantaran to them. Its like exchanging the Hantaran. I dunno how to explain this but this is as the symbol of welcoming new family in both side. Hantaran can be in any form, fruits, clothes (Baju Melayu mostly), Quran, Kain Songket (for men), food, and few would giving money and ect and are wrapped. This aren’t specific. But before the ceremony and the exchanging the Hantaran, the future bride must have both agreement based on their ability to make the Hantaran. 

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The Hantaran giving is different from any region in Malaysia. In Kelantan iGUESS la, the girl’s side must giving twice the price of the guy’s side. Haha sorry if this the wrong fact. :P And to make this OVER THE TOP, since our family are new in such even, WE FORGOT TO GIVE AWAY OUR HANTARAN. haha sorry but that just out of BLUE. haha ;p So me, my sister, my big brother and my mum drive to their homestay and gave them our hantaran. HAHA  my uncle said, WE ARE TOO MODERN FOR DOING THIS hehe Well, maybe the absent of my grandmother part of it because she knows everything well. So but overall everything was FUN. :)

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Here’s some pictures you might want to enjoy and feels the event. :)